LOVE OF ALL TIME

Baby everyday I pray for someone like you and today my prayers came true.. just let me say that thinking 'bout u is how I start my day.. I love your style, Baby just one look at you drives me crazy and I cherish the moment that we're together cuz you're my everything.

We've got the love of all times, Of all times...
Yes I prayed for someone just like you.
I'm so glad someone like you loves me to.
Honey it sets me free.. Dont even explain why you're so good to me. No there's nothing they could do, it wouldnt be enough, it wouldnt change my love for you. To come between us. It may sound crazy, but your love saves me. You're my everything...

I know you hurt before, but you wont hurt no more.
I swear I wont let you down.
I know this love is forever. Shows in everything you do.
I'll do anything you want me to...

I finally found someone

3 I finally found someone who knocks me off my feet i finally found the one who makes me feel complete it started over coffee we started off as friends its funny how from simple things the best things begin this time its different, it's all because of you it's betther than it's ever been cause we can talk it through my favorite line was can I call you sometime it's all u had to say to take my breath away this is it i finally found someone someone to share my life i finally found the one to be with every night cuz whatever I do it's just got to be you my life has just begun i will wait forever just to know you were mine you know I love your style... i love what you wear you're exceptional i can't wait for the rest of my life

LOVE subject

Relationship isn’t math, it isn’t about calculation of matchness
Relationship more like physics, in it has cause & effect of actions

Relationship isn’t history, it doesn’t talk about past life
Relationship more like sport, activity in the present time

Relationship isn’t art, it doesn’t depend on mood
Relationship more like law, it has rules & commitment between two persons

Relationship most likely combination of language & chemistry
It reacts when we close each other with someone we love by showing warm smile
And it feels so wonderful when we listen to our beloved couple when they say…

…“I LOVE YOU”…

-=:Dedicated to E.N.G:=-
My mind, Story of today

My Consciousness

Year after year, finally I have discovered what kind of my favorite man’s type.

Actually it took a lot of time for me to realize it.

Well..I can say that it took 20 years above of my life time to realize it.

I meet him on the right time, the right place & the right chemistry.

Wether it is right or wrong.. hope my Mighty Guidance, my Jesus Christ, lead me to the right one.

At least, I feel so glad to know about it.

What I have to do right now.. just wait.. pray.. n hope…

“Inside a pray, there is always be a hope on it..

Inside a hope, there is always be a chance on it..

Inside a chance, there is always be a time on it..

A time to meet someone that you want the most.. someone that you want to spend the rest of your life time only with the one you hearted forever & ever”

Nice 1st song from

Hellboy 2 The Golden Army

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seem light years away

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I’m finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can’t smile without you
I can’t smile without you
I can’t laugh and I can’t sing
I’m finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you’re glad
      I feel sad when you’re sad
  If you only knew what I’m going through
   I just can’t smile without you

"I never realize, eventough this is a very old song..but when I listened to it..and catched the word one by one in this movie…..wew..it’s deep..

 I really never realize it before..untill now..at last.."

Suka - Sayang - Cinta

** SUKA/SAYANG/CINTA?? **

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang,
kau ingin memilikinya untuk keegoisanmu sendiri.
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang,
kau ingin sekali membuatnya bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri.
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang,
kau akan melakukan apapun untuk kebahagiaannya walaupun kau harus mengorbankan jiwamu.

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada disisinya
maka kau akan bertanya,”Bolehkah aku menciummu?”
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada disisinyamaka kau akan bertanya,”Bolehkah aku memelukmu?”
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada disisinya
maka kau akan menggenggam erat tangannya…

SUKA adalah saat kau melihatnya
kau akan berkata,”Ia sangat cantik dan menawan.”
SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya
kau akan melihatnya dari hatimu dan bukan matamu.
CINTA adalah saat kau melihatnya
kau akan berkata,”Buatku, dia adalah anugerah terindah
yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku..”

Pada saat orang yang kau SUKA menyakitimu,
maka kau akan marah dan tak mau lagi bicara padanya.
Pada saat orang yang kau sayang menyakitimu,
engkau akan menangis untuknya.
Pada saat orang yang kau CINTAI menyakitimu,
kau akan berkata,”Tak apa, dia hanya sedang emosi,toh aq juga salah.”

Pada saat kau SUKA padanya, kau akan MEMAKSANYA untuk menyukaimu.Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya,
kau akan MEMBIARKANNYA MEMILIH.
Pada saat kau CINTA padanya,
kau akan selalu MENANTINYA dengan setia dan tulus…

SUKA adalah kau akan menemaninya bila itu menguntungkan.
SAYANG adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat dia membutuhkan.
CINTA adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat bagaimanapun keadaanmu.

SUKA adalah hal yang menuntut.
SAYANG adalah hal memberi dan menerima.
CINTA adalah hal yang memberi dengan rela…

Two days ago, I saw this Korean movie, Millionaire's First love… it’s really make my mind about love open wide when it related to someone special for me.

What is the most fear when I am being in relationship with someone that I loved?
Do I fear my couple will cheat on me? Lie to me? Or treat me very bad?
Before I saw this movie, I thought like that…but there’s something deeper than those reasons…

The most fear is when I am being together, deeply in love, so many smile and happpiness…but I only have short time to enjoy that moment.
I think it’s really painfull…it can’t be described by words…only tears and sadness…for I will be losing my special person that I want more time to be together.
Maybe I just can do, only hope & pray…hope & pray that HE will give me a little time longer to spend my time with someone I love…even just for a day, an hour or a minute…eventough faith is running on me.
Losing someone I love when I break up, it’s totally sad…but losing someone I really love beacuse I can’t againts the most defeateable will…death I mean…it’s really worst.

I’m just hoping & praying it won’t be happened to me. I just want to pray to GOD…I really pray to you, my mighty GOD…please don’t put myself into that situation. I’m just human being, I just weak. Please don’t give me trial that too much hard. I just want to live happily forever with someone I love.

I really learn one thing from this movie…when I already found my true love, I don’t want to underestimate love…or treat my love very bad…I just want to make him happy…hopefully I can make it no matter how. Because true love for me is really precious and to find true love is not easy, it takes time…that’s why I hope I can do the best when the time of true love come. God bless me and all of us. Amin.

My question for someone

read this, ok?!

I have one easy question for you…

what do you expect from a woman of your dream? Please answer it what you have in your mind without think too much after you read this…’coz natural answer is what I want to know.

Thank you...^^

The Time Of My Life

It’s been a long time
I never been in a relationship in my life
But it’s been longer since I’m waiting him
him presence

I do believe it on what I believe inside
I do feel it on what I feel inside
Through time & situations
I always been led back to the path
Path of me & him

Many times that some people said
Why when a man started to like n love the woman
But the woman didn’t like n love him?
Some people call it “it isn’t the right time on the right moment”

I’d been in that circumstances so many times
Sometimes I wondered, did I had to through it all in my life?
Why I couldn’t have chance to love & being loved in the same time?
Was it had to be my destiny?
Should I just dream it?

Luckly,
It didn’t seem like I thought before
Eventough the world has its own rules
To rule the land & all the people that live inside

But at least in this life
I can love & being loved in the same time
That so real & so honest

And I very thankfull to God that He give me that chance
…I’m so happy & relief about it…

I know that I’m not a perfect person
But I believe that I can love somebody perfectly
I’m just human being
But it doesn’t mean I just accepting the faith
By sitting around & do nothing

I’m flowing the time by will, hope & effort
In order to, wish that it will lead me to my destiny
Destiny of my future
Which is I will have him picture on my future life

God bless us
&
Amen.

DIFFERENCE BETWEEN
FALLING IN LOVE WITH LOVE

JATUH CINTA

Jatuh cinta bukanlah hal yang sulit. Jatuh cinta merupakan hal yang sangat alami dan pengalaman yang begitu spontan, ngga perlu berbuat apapun..mgkn itu sebabnya mengapa dikatakan “jatuh” cinta!

Orang yang sedang kasmaran kadang mengatakan “aku mabuk cinta” Bayangkan eksprisi tersebut! Seakan-akan anda sedang berdiri tanpa melakukan apapun lalu tiba-tiba
sesuatu datang dan terjadi begitu saja pada anda. Jadi kesimpulannya Jatuh cinta itu mudah, sesuatu yang pasif dan spontan.

CINTA

sedangkan Cinta bukanlah hal yang PASIF ataupun pengalaman yang spontan
Cinta NGGA AKAN PERNAH begitu saja terjadi! Kita ngga akan bisa MENEMUKAN cinta yang selamanya, Kita harus MENGUSAHAKANNYA dari hari ke hari.
Benar juga ungkapan “diperbudak cinta” karena cinta itu BUTUH waktu, usaha, dan energi.
Dan yang paling penting, cinta itu butuh sikap BIJAK
Kita harus tahu benar APA YANG HARUS DILAKUKAN agar suatu hubungan
berjalan dengan baik .
Jangan membuat kesalahan untuk hal yang satu ini.
Cinta bukanlah MISTERI

Ada beberapa hal spesifik yang bisa dilakukan (dengan ataupun tanpa pasangan kita) agar hubungan berjalan lancar.. sama halnya dengan hukum alam pada ilmu fisika (seperti gaya Grafitasi), dalam suatu ikatan hubungan juga ada hukumnya.
Sama halnya dengan diet yang tepat dan olahraga yang benar dapat membuat tubuh kita lebih kuat, beberapa kebiasaan dalam suatu hubungan juga DAPAT membuat hubungan itu sendiri menjadi lebih kuat.
Ini merupakan reaksi sebab akibat.

Jika kita tahu dan mau menerapkan hukum-hukum tersebut, tentulah kita bisa “MEMBUAT” cinta bukan “JATUH”. Karena sesungguhnya cinta dalam menjalin suatu hubungan merupakan
sebuah DECISION,dan bukan cuma PERASAAN..!

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak mendengar…
namun senantiasa bergetar….

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak buta..
namun senantiasa melihat dan merasa..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak menyiksa..
namun senantiasa menguji..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak memaksa..
namun senantiasa berusaha..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak cantik..
namun senantiasa menarik..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak datang dengan kata-kata..
namun senantiasa menghampiri dengan
hati..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak terucap dengan kata..
namun senantiasa hadir dengan sinar
mata dan bahasa tubuh..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak hanya berjanji..
namun senantiasa mencoba
memenangi..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia mungkin tidak suci..
namun senantiasa tulus..

jika ia sebuah cinta…..
ia tidak hadir karena permintaan..
namun hadir karena ketentuan…

jika ia sebuah cinta, ia tidak hadir dengan kekayaan dan
kebendaan…
namun hadir karena pengorbanan dan
kesetiaan..

Cintailah pasangan kita, seperti kita ingin dicintai olehnya
Setialah pada pasangan anda, seperti anda ingin mendapatkan kesetiannya

My Life ^^

Soul雞 + Mate龍- 200209 ~ Accepting it | Hoping it | Struggling it

I dunno how to write it
I dunno how to picture it
I only want to write some lyrics of few songs that quite filled (inspired) some moments before I have a new life.
Maybe the way I write it will be quite mess..but later I’ll fix it..maybe I’m too excited with what I have achieved..I mean..I’m really excited to through this year, n hopefully by permission from GOD, not only this year..but year by year in the future..with him along by myside, hand to hand..
holding each other..across the time =]

Selamanya cinta > D'cinammons
My Valentine > Jim Brickman
First Love > Utada Hikaru
Oh Baby > Cinta Laura
Sarang He Yo > JJ Lin

Being honest..being opened..maybe for some people it’s quite horrorfying..but sometime when the time command you to say it..it wouldn’t be that scary.

I already had been up and down many times..which is..it seem..by the power of TIME, my will being put into trials and trials..so I had to struggle it..and had to hoping it..also had to accepting it.

Quite wierd when you read this..but for me it’s too REAL to be denied.
I can say..I never felt that feeling..that strong bound..that almost same characters & other parts/things of us which I can’t describe it in here (sorry)..that is very hard to be believed..that I think..he's THE ONE ^^

Okay..judge me that I’m too early to say it or announce it..or maybe, just say that because I’m depply in love rightnow then I think in that way..

People can say everything that they want to say..but they don’t know what I’d been through..how was my feeling when I fell down many times, that almost made me to gave up of it..but I dunno how, everytime I want to gave up, He just like give hope inside of me, and made me believe that there’s a chance..and the chance showed up. I dunno how you call it..you can call it coincidence, so do I..but this is the coincidence that it never happened in my whole life after I remembered all things that ever happened in my life...nothing that closed enough like this one.

Better I don’t talk too much about this..but what happened from the nov 2008 till feb 2009..it seem like chain of somethings in my life..that lead me onto something & someone..someone that maybe can change my life..and something that give me hope & believe that I can be somebody better in this life.

Well..maybe I’m too naive by writing this.

But nothing to be ashamed of, coz like I said before..my feeling to him now it's REAL.
Eventough while I was walking on it, maybe many of persons thought me as a dreamer or maybe silly person..how can i "..............." with someone who's younger than me.

hahahaha..OMG...it's very2 funny n crazy!
But you know what..those characters..a dreamer..a sillywoman, that helped me to reach what I wanted..beside praying to the Lord.

Some quotes also help me to get through it..
“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE, BE CONTENT TO BE THOUGHT FOOLISH AND STUPID”

We all know that sometime we are being stupid and silly many times in our life
But do you ever realize, that your sillyness and you stupidity sometime bring colours into your life..something that could be a surprise..unexpected good surprise.

Last but not least..

“IS IT DIFFICULT TO BE A WINNER. BUT IT IS HARDER TO MAINTAIN IT”

This is not THE END of the struggle, but it is THE BEGINNING of it.

My new life just begin right now but it feels like I know him for a long long long time ago.

May GOD bless us from now on till the end.

AMEN.

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Thanks to GOD that always helps me in some of my hard times n finallyI found someone.

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Thanks to my Lovely mom, eventough she didn’t know what was already being happened 2me but thx for her time & her ear to listen my heart-expression.
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Thanks to friendster n ym that made me met him..I owe very BIG for this. THANKS!

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And also thanks to him too..for everythings =]
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My Valentine's day 09

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Valentine day.. When this event was coming by..so many questions asked to me..what would I do in Valentine day? I only said that I would took walk in the mall or could be just watched DVD in my home. Hmmm..I never realize that 1 day besides the others 355 days, will make some of people busy (especially couples) that what will they do when the day comes? Weird, huh? it was true..there was different atmosphere...Like love was everywhere..love was in the air that moment.Valentine day really could made somebody busy..just like these examples I took from some of my friends.
First, a friend of mine asked to me wether she should gift chocholate or not to the man she like..& until February 14th in the morning she still didn’t sleep yet because she just finished her design card for her man. (Fiuhhh..)
Second, other friend of mine, celebrated this Valentine as the last day they were in relationship. (Totally didn’t make sense at all..) For myself, Valentine day was stupid because there’s no something special to be celebrated becaused in my opinion Valentine day not only February 14th..I can say that Valentine day can be brought in anyday of our life, isn’t? Maybe some of you agree with me & some are disagree.Valentine just an ordinary day..maybe in Valentine day we can have some reasons to give someone we like chocolates, flowers, or gifts than any other day because it’s Valentine..

but actually after I passed Valentine this year i have changed my point of view about valentine day., It's because I celebrate it with him^^ altough we juzt dinner, watching movie, walking together..holding hands =p It's make me very" happy n appreciate Valentine event this year. thx 2 GOD that made me meet him and also want to say many" thanks to my litbro’s..for the flowers, persian cat doll, menta heart candy, happpydent lemon mint, toblerone, my body green tea =p hahaha.. Although your gift is simple but so meaningfull ^^ Thinking of U make me smile =) Thinking of U n me 2gether makes me blush...=p

"I hope the next Valentine day I will already have someone special beside me. .hopefully, hehehe =D
Happy Valentine day all!"

Regards,
-Lilian-

This pic of bread below is dedicated to my lophly little bro or Siny0o in malank city^^

"Heyyy bro..Actually all this bread is 4U but b'coz u r currently in malank so that i cant sent this bread t0 U since it'z troublesome, moreover the bread will taste nasty n bad...
But don't b dissapointed, next time I will make more special one, so please b patient...
For now u have to b satisfied juzt to see the picture only" =p

Hmmmmm...Deliciousssss...!!!
jgn ngilerrr yaaaaa...hahahahahhaha...

MY 1st BREAD ^^

SAUSAGE N FISH BREAD
Filling :

• sausage

Toping :

• Mozarella
• Mayonaise
• Saos Tomat
• Daun Bawang
  

SMOKE BEEF BREAD
Filling :

• Smoked Beef
• Abon

Topping :

• Mozarella
• Mayonaise
• Daun Bawang
  
• Tomato Sauce
  

TRIPLE BALL BREAD
Filling : kosongan, g pke^^
Toping :

• Abon
  
• Daun Bawang
  
• Smoked Beef potong segitiga
• Chesse potong segitiga
  

SWEET MAYONAISE BREAD
Filling : g pke jg, kosongan ^^
Toping :

• Sweet Mayonaise
• Abon

CHESSE ALMOND BUN
Filling : Cream Chesse
Toping :

• Sauce Almond Crispy

TUNA SWEET BUN
Filling :

• Tuna

Topping:

• Mayonaise
• Daun Bawang
  

PAPRIKA BREAD
Filling :

• Smoked Beef
• Chesse
  

Toping :

• Paprika Hijau, Merah
• Mozarella
• Mayonaise
• Tomato sauce
  

CELERI SWEET BREAD
Filling : Abon
Topping :

• Mexican celeri
• Mozarella

Lyric of a song

PETER CARERA - YOU'RE THE INSPIRATION

You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
You’re always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

You’re the meaning in my life
You’re the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You’re the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin’
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it’s plain to see
We’re so in love when we’re together
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

You’re the meaning in my life
You’re the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You’re the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin’
No one needs you more than I need you

You’re the meaning in my life
You’re the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You’re the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin’
No one needs you more than I need you

~ This song is dedicated to my future half-heart, eventough I don’t know who is he & where is he in the mean time but I’m sure we will meet each other someday somehow.
May my GOD, Jesus Christ, lead me to right one and only. Amen ~

Lilian,^^

ONCE AGAIN ABOUT L.O.V.E

Hello y’all.... Just drop by for one simple question n need a deep answer
What do you choose…being loved or loving?
Don’t answer both…please write your reason too Just answer it honestly from your point of view I just wanna share with y’all Thank you

Regards, Lilian^^

MOMMY

MOMMY

Mama melahirkan kita sambil menangis kesakitan dan masih
kita menyakitinya

Masih mampukah kita tertawa melihat penderitaannya

Mencaci makinya, melawannya, memukulnya, mengacuhkannya,
meninggalkannya

Mama tidak pernah mengeluh

Membersihkan kotoran yang ada, pada kita waktu masih kecil

Memberikan ASI waktu kita bayi

Mencuci celana kotor kita

Menahan derita menggendong kita seharian

Sadarilah bahwa di dunia ini tak ada 1 orangpun yang mau
mati demi kita

Selain mama…

-I love you, mom-